Saturday, December 18, 2010

Ok that was weird!

I had the strangest dream this morning...

I had stolen a bunch of my cousin's clothing, was wearing pants that were too tight and I had on two purple boots each one from a different set of shoes.  I woke up while my dream self was pulling apart the house looking for the matching set to at least one set of shoes so I could go to work with the nagging feeling I had given half of two sets of boots to the good will.

Now, jokes about purple Prince boots aside here is what my brain was trying to tell me, I think:
A) Stealing cousin's clothing - um, not sure other than she lost a huge amount of weight 6 years ago and has kept it off so my mind's way of setting a goal for myself?
B) pants not fitting - I am so slacking on my diet and thus feeling very guilty odviously
C) mismatched purple boots - my minds way of torturing me ;)  I would love to purchase boots, the current trend of boots I would so love to jump on board and buy a pair.  Unfortunately, my feet are different sizes and so I have to try EVERY pair of shoes on I can't just order 'em from the net...sigh.

My sis is having reoccurring dreams about falling out of a helicopter with no parachute so I should count myself lucky for the prince boots and the camel toe!

After a lot of thought and discussion with my sister, I've decided that I do need to give myself the month of December off of my diet and that by the time Jan 10 rolls around I will be MORE than ready to start another diet pact!  Eventually, I will have to live without being on a diet so now is as good as a time as any to see if I can keep myself in a range of 5 pounds and not loose my sanity (not including the dream). 

Friday, December 3, 2010

Jeans....ah! and what are those...wrinkles?

It has been years since I have been comfortable in jeans.  Yesterday, I wore a skirt, tights, healed clogs, and a nice blouse to school.  I came home and needed something comfy and pulled out a pair of jeans.  After I walked down the hall and saw myself in my NEW full length mirror I just smiled.  I only started wearing jeans after my first son was born and I was a stay at home mom, before that I wore them in high school.  You see I hated them in HS they were always too tight but being young and vain as only teenagers can be I wore them.  Then in college when I gained a LOT of weight they didn't make them in my size.  It wasn't until Lane Bryant came out with the body type jeans that I would wear them and even then I never felt comfortable.  At the end of the day I would feel cut in half when I sat down or even the dreaded toe of camel would appear.  So I maybe owned one or two pairs.  Now, they are my go to item of clothing on the weekends.  I would wear them every day if I could!  What a long way I have come in the 9 months I have been on this diet pact!

I remember having a conversation with my sister once and it went something like this:
Sister: I've decided I would rather be a little you notice fat people don't have wrinkles?
Me: They don't have what?
Sis: Wrinkles, I've decided that I'm going to be happy with my chubby self because I'll have less wrinkles.
Me: hmm.....

Now that I've lost 54 pounds (2 pounds down in my goal for 4 before the end of the year) I'm noticing more wrinkles on my face, especially under my eyes!  Now, I'm not sure if it is my desire for "me" time and staying up late to watch FBI agents catch the psycho of the week or if I'm loosing my chub wrinkle buffer.  Until I figure it out I think I'll go the lotion/potion rout...oh and maybe try to get to bed earlier, too! :)