14. Fantasy vs. Reality

With only 14 days left I decided I would do a lesson learned each day.  Here is #14:

Fantasy vs. Reality – my brain would love my body to be a size 2; however my body knows that that is just impossible.  My brain would love for me to lose 2-3 pounds a week because by that math I would be 100 pounds lighter by the time the 40 weeks were up; my body knows that is impossible.  My brain says, “Ah, you skip a meal and you’ll be fine,” my body knows differently!   This is why Gretchen, Holly and I set a reasonable goal of a pound a week, and with the understanding that some weeks we wouldn’t make that goal.  We knew that life would get in the way of weight loss and we were trying to change our way of living rather than crash and burn dieting.

Now I lost my last two week bet and thus owe $20 bucks.  I'm determined to not lose this last two week bet.  Although, the 2 Reese's Peanut Butter cups are not helping!  

14 days left! 

15 days - 3 groups of 5

Yesterday, I meant to post...and then didn't get around to it.  So, now onto today:

Breakfast - boys wanted eggs so I scrambled up a bunch and we had a lovely breakfast
Lunch - smooth as pie, because I packed it the night before
Snack - almonds while waiting for oven to heat up and chatting on the phone...woops how many did I eat, I need to remember not to eat, chat and cook...too many calories I am sure
Dinner - half veggies and 4 spicy wings not to shabby
Exercise - nope too pooped after today, I had the best of intentions and packed a work out bag too

scale - looks like Monday...sigh.  Onward and Downward!

I have been thinking of the top ten things the three of us have learned during these 40 weeks and I will post that soon.

My plan for the weekend: no grocery shopping while hungry and no cooking and chatting and snacking! :)  Oh! and a work out as well :)

18 more to go!

Ok! I should know not to go to the market when you are hungry.  I was going to pick up 3 staple items...I spent 40 bucks and snacked my whole way home in the car...naughty naughty!  next time remember not to go hungry!

Breakfast - superb!
Lunch - made it the night before
Snack...um...see above
Dinner - homecooked and what I planned kilbasa, mushrooms, onions and brocoli delish!

Exercise - Check
Scale - ok...not great but ok :) I am due for that gal that comes around once a month, which is why I might have been so darn hungry (I get vicious attacks of the starving, dying, starving at this lovely time of the month!)

We'll see how tomorrow goes!  I am not going to beat myself up, just accept and move on!

19 more wake ups!

This is the way the describe it in the military, because you have so many people on different shifts, so I have 19 more wake ups on our diet pact.

Breakfast - excellent
Lunch - ate too much but still remained true to diet guide lines
Dinner - ate a small dinner to compensate for bigger lunch
No exercise today because I ran a bunch of errands (voting being one of them)
Scale - is my friend today! :)

looking forward to tomorrow!

20 days left

Breakfast - right on track!
Lunch - packed it the night before
Snack - was prepared with a box of acceptable snacks at school
Dinner - Joseph said he wanted eggs, so we had scrambled eggs, sausage and I had brussel sprouts too
After dinner Halloween candy - NONE!

Yay me!
Scale - not my friend today (but who could blame it after I was not on track last week)

motivation lagging....

This week has been a big drain on my diet motivation.  Sunday & Monday I ended up fasting for a colonoscopy and then could NOT get myself back on the road to dieting.  sigh.  I remember last time I lost a bunch of weight and was fitting into clothing and feeling really good, I stopped dieting like this and then watched the weight creep back up (partly due to making baby stress, but the weight still crept back on).  I am ten pounds away from being "overweight" instead of "obese" and would love to get there, I am just lacking in motivation.

My sister and I talked about the next weight bet we make needs to be much smaller as 40 weeks is a LONG time, let me check how many weeks we have left...we have ::gasp:: 3 weeks left!  Crud! only 3 weeks left, this is like stumbling at the last 100 yards in a marathon!  pull it together girl! 

Ok, so my goals are then:
1. pull yourself together, you are almost at the end!
2. exercise, you'll feel better and more motivated to do what you need to do!
3. watch what you eat, you know what you are doing when you eat those mini snickers bars girl!
4. you can do it, you only have 3 weeks left, 21 days!
5. maybe start again on Monday and give yourself a last day of sissy-la-la-ness!

3 weeks, good god girl you can do it! you can do it!

I did it!

Yep, I am 50 pounds lighter than when I started 7 months ago! and sick as a dog!  Fifty pounds is such a big number, I remember thinking when we started this bet that I would be so happy to be 40 pounds lighter and I've surpassed myself!  I've been reading a lot of blogs lately and the reoccurring them seems to be victories not related to the scale.  So, I've been wracking my brain thinking of all of the little things that I am proud of that don't relate to numbers on the scale.

  1. I fit comfortably into the middle seat on an airplane
  2. I have a full length mirror in my house and use it often!
  3. I can sit between my children in the back seat of my husband's car
  4. I can fit into a size 14 (still a little tight)
  5. My size 16s are loose and baggy by the end of the day
  6. My plantar faciitus is gone!
  7. I know when I'm hungry and when I'm just jonesing for something
  8. I can say no to something I don't want to eat without feeling social guilt
  9. I have a plan for the future
10. Shopping is enjoyable rather than an ugly chore